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I can’t make the words flow right today. Any I try to push out of my mouth come out all wrong with undercurrents of negativity and heaviness that surprises me when I hear it. Every little thing I say has a simple, clear meaning inside my head and when I try to translate it it’s like the words I choose have a double meaning in this tongue that seems foreign and I can’t make my intentions clear. It’s my fault though. I head it just like the people I’m speaking to do. They don’t misunderstand me—no, it’s like I say “bitch” simply meaning a female dog, but obviously no one would assume that to be my meaning. I hear what they hear. But why does everything I say today have to feel so filthy? Where have all my beautiful words gone?
Begin the journey toward finding FLOE with part one.
