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I’m gonna mess him up

Find FLOE
1 min readAug 12, 2019

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Sitting staring as my baby sleeps I feel fear settling inside: I’m gonna mess him up.

At some point in the next dozen years I’ll say or do something that will affect him too deeply. It’s probably a small habit I’m developing now. Something I think is meaningless will grow and compound until it’s too much for him to handle.

What kind of trauma will I let my child experience? How many regrets will I have by the time he is grown?

His waking cries snap me out of my fearful paralysis and force me to move.

Written for the #100meaningfulwords challenge. Will you join me?

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Written by Find FLOE

FLOE: Freedom through Leadership, Organization, and Engagement. This is my neurodivergent journey, my heart poured out into stories, essays, and poetry.

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